Redef ining Beauty and Appearance Af ter a Breast Cancer Diagnosis

I paid attention to my movements, my thoughts and my feelings and in this, I discovered femininity in hidden places. [...] I felt like I?d left my body and was floating alongside myself as I left the oncologist?s office with my best friend beside me and headed to the hospital?s labs to have the mandatory pre-chemo testing done on my vital organs. [...] Then I called my sisters, parents and closest friends and shared the news before writing a detailed email to my workplace?s HR department outlining how I would like to manage this next step and my current workload. [...] It didn?t change the fact that I still had breast cancer, but it did wipe away the gripping fear of not knowing how sick chemotherapy would make me, if I would be able to take care of myself by myself, continue to work to pay for my mortgage, buy food to eat and tend to my cat. [...] I was also clueless to what the saying Before my breast cancer never-been-nailed meant and I diagnosis, I only ever called my suspect my sister was too.