Authors
- Control Number Identifier
- CaOOCEL
- Description conventions
- rda
- Dewey Decimal Classification Number
- 811/.6
- Dewey Decimal Edition Number
- 23
- Distributor
- Canadian Electronic Library (Firm),
- General Note
- Issued as part of the desLibris books collection
- ISBN
- 9781989287798
- LCCN
- PR9199.4.S5298
- LCCN Item number
- A6 2021eb
- Modifying agency
- CaBNVSL
- Original cataloging agency
- NLC
- Physical Description | Extent
- 1 electronic text (117 pages)
- Published in
- Ottawa, Ontario
- Publisher or Distributor Number
- CaOOCEL
- Rights
- Access restricted to authorized users and institutions
- System Control Number
- (CaBNVSL)kck00241890 (OCoLC)1228345918 (CaOOCEL)460841
- System Details Note
- Mode of access: World Wide Web
- Transcribing agency
- YDX
Table of Contents
- Cover 1
- Title Page 4
- Copyright 5
- Table of Contents 6
- Dedication 10
- un bacin d’amor 12
- ponte vecchio 14
- ins and outs of days 16
- her father came home 17
- her past unravels 18
- she remembers dates 21
- she transports me 22
- nonna took me for walks 23
- hand-made apron tied 24
- the day before 25
- after she lets me 26
- she wouldn’t throw out old stockings 27
- the wrinkle between her eyebrows 28
- she made one pantsuit for herself 29
- in willistead park she teaches me 30
- nonna takes a bath 31
- she is naked from the waist down. 32
- she said 33
- something happened after her brother died 34
- what if this is a lesson in light? 35
- only the good lasts 36
- there are no stories 38
- when I enter this house 39
- her head floats over 41
- i begin with thimbles 42
- the wine is locked up 43
- nonna never complained 45
- i call them episodes 46
- her middle name 48
- my hands were always swelling. 49
- this afternoon at 3:45 50
- nonna needs someone 51
- she never changed 52
- in the white 53
- i arrive armed 54
- later i ask her 55
- i witness her suffering 56
- i call to her 57
- i am too weak 58
- the questions i haven’t asked 59
- over & over, i am fractured 60
- i want to unfold the disease 61
- & there are days 62
- i didn’t pay attention to her service 63
- i can see your spirit 64
- you are an extension of me 65
- i dream of going into your bedroom 66
- does it make me a bad 67
- for two months i did not visit. 68
- who will take her things? 69
- i stole your flowered dress 70
- if thimbles could speak 71
- on my left arm there’s a thimble in black 72
- in the purgatory of a transitioning soul 73
- i stare at nonna 74
- one day i’m going to 75
- minds change like colour in heated cotton 76
- on this day she is different 77
- don’t force her to get up 78
- the palliative care doctor is a man 79
- three daughters one granddaughter a nurse 81
- i curse my inability to speak my heart 82
- her pain is spiritual 83
- nonna’s spirit floats above 84
- even though 85
- water gets inserted 86
- the medical term is “agitation” 87
- i undo myself 88
- this is a plea 89
- her body becomes 90
- her cheekbones 91
- i can measure 92
- send in the opioids 93
- i let her go before she goes 94
- i am afraid 95
- domani è un altro giorno 96
- my cell phone rings at 6:12am 98
- i give you permission 99
- her forehead is still warm 100
- it takes too long for the nurse to arrive 101
- there is talk of tying it 102
- black body bag gaping on a stretcher 103
- thursdays will always be cracked 104
- today 105
- the pandemic funeral 106
- i take three pictures 107
- seven hours of visitation 108
- someone tucked roses 109
- the date of your death 110
- a shirtless man with 1980s hair 111
- the ground 112
- the simple truth is 113
- i want you back in the kitchen 114
- breakfast with nonna in the graveyard 115
- it is my responsibility 116
- ask me anything 117
- response: when i die i want your thimble on my finger 118
- Acknowledgements 122
- About the Author 124